If you're bored, then you're boring!

naurieoftheloth @ 2006-07-18T20:54:00

2006-07-19T00:53:30Z

my jaw's broken.
it's cool.
it kinda hurts, but it's cool.

naurieoftheloth @ 2006-06-03T11:21:00

2006-06-03T15:21:28Z

so i know most of you don't read any more....

2006-03-21T03:38:13Z

just answer this:
at age 17, how can one be so worn?

Whoa whoa whoa

2006-03-13T02:21:25Z

HEY!
I went surfing!
srdgfdskg;sfdg;sdg;fd!!!
Amazing!!!!!

and ow-ish- my arms are so sore but that's ok cause I was IN THE FRIGGIN WATER!
YAY

SOmething I wrote. Comment please. Criticize. Etc.

2006-02-28T02:26:34Z

CB Blues

I sit on the ocean waves girl-body like a feather legs like a jellyfish as they dangle off my board skin pale as snow. The sun rises a variety of colors and I know it’s not just a ‘pretty sunrise’ but one with smog because I’m on CB and even the air is poisoned. It’s still beautiful. I still love it. God, I love it. It’s my poison, but at least I chose the right kind of poison.

CB is poison. Every person who has touched that beach has got it too. There are two kinds: the kind that saves the kind that kills. The latter is almost always the case, and I am reminded over and over again with the stories or the stragglers on the beach or Mark who asked: “save me?” but he was already too far in it…the poison penetrated his eyes and showed in those marks on his arm. He’s still around but not really only a phantom of him. It’s imminent with that kind of CB poisoning.

The other kind of poisoning, my kind, is rare. It’s not numb like Mark. It saves CB saves. CB says, ‘Ok, take care of me. Spend the night under my sect of stars. Feel my soft sand between your toes. Sense the sun infiltrating your skin. It’s my sun. But make me something more, and when you’ve done that, get out.’

If you stay too long, even that saving poison turns bad. As the old man by the pier that zombie guardian says, ‘temptation is a killer.’ It’s the only thing he really says. He was raised on that CB poison. His daughter escaped to some West Coast college but came back and now only sits beside him just as dead. She’s so beautiful. So lost.

Everyone in CB has a choice. The poison works its way through like water, engulfing anyone in its path. It’s inevitable. I always hope for the best, surfing with the CB kids there is hope sometimes. The beach calls out to its lost citizens crying ‘save me and I will save you!’ but most of the time it’s calling to the living dead.

I could do homework.

2006-02-06T23:25:50Z

Hahaha, well, that's a joke.

It's called life.

2006-01-12T02:53:14Z

"What's wrong B?"

Her eyes are like glass and her nose is red. She looks too sad to be my little sister.

"My tower's broken. Everytime I try to fix it, another part breaks."

Come on, you're smart enough to figure out this ancedote.

Here's the plan.

2006-01-04T02:53:05Z

We meet in the reference section. Before we know it, we crash and meld. It's the best tasting thing we've ever smiled. I whisper a secret, my secret, and it becomes our secret. We can only whisper it so we whisper it againandagainandagain. We forget about the complexity and find something more, something worth saving and keeping and molding from its delicate beginnings to something strong that'll last.

And we continue in this doomed sort of path, meandering in lovely fields but always finding our way back to the inevitable. And it'll be so good while it lasts that there will be no regrets.

Because I want to discover you and you want to discover me.

Because you want to discover you and I want to discover me.

Because we'll be loved and will love. There'll be nothing hidden between us, but we'll be hidden from the world.

EVERYONE.

2006-01-01T00:22:10Z

BE SAFE.

That's all.

And resolutions:
1. Not suck anymore.
2. Stop wasting my time.
3. Learn to drive (without killing anyone).
4. Feel again.

ohgodohgod

2005-12-30T21:33:43Z

I am such a waste.
Of everything.

Talent, intelligence, productivity, love, even hatred.
Devoid of passion.

Utterly bored and uncaring.

What the hell is wrong with me?

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-12-17T22:48:00

2005-12-18T03:48:18Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|	20%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	84%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

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2005-12-17T03:12:16Z

I regret not getting my license.
Because I need to breathe. I need to feel free.

I remember feeling free. I remember my second night back. We drove around CB, and as cancerous as that place is, us driving, windows down, music drifting in and out, casual talk and unwelcomed smoke rings brought us something, some sort of freedom. It was open and simple and everything that I need now. There were no secrets except the usual ones from the usual detectives but nothing hidden between the suspects.

As good as this life is, as good as love is, as good as friends are, as good as everything is, there is a problem. If only i could feel that freedom...i could find a solution.

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-12-07T21:47:00

2005-12-08T02:48:16Z

i just really wish i wasn't socially retarded.
and i really wish i could break into the effin club.

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-11-28T22:59:00

2005-11-29T04:00:07Z

bullocks.

christmas.

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-11-27T19:28:00

2005-11-28T00:28:23Z

also i have a xanga i will probably be using more: vintage_vindictive

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-11-27T19:26:00

2005-11-28T00:27:41Z

I really would like to make it effin clear that the gd holidays are so effin busy that i can't even get all of my snit done.

gd.

in other news,
well, there is no other news. because school is life right now.

gdgdgd.

ok owo

2005-09-18T17:09:54Z

school's crazy and i have no net but if truth be told i don't really miss it much minus talking to plaza people.

saw jack johnson, v. fun.

whence i have the net again i will have a big yummy update.

i hope everyone is doing ok!

sick.

2005-08-21T01:04:40Z

ew.
with my last day with mum too. it sucks.

hp killing spree...please don't comment/post/etc as a friend and i are working it out. gee thanks.

2005-08-19T20:06:32Z

"Harry woke up in his little bedroom in Privet Drive and found himself with an irresistable urge to kill"
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
'of course Voldemort also felt it, being VOLDEMORT, so on that particular day Harry decided to call ol' Voldemort up. Voldemort, being VOLDEMORT, didn't know what the hell the little thing that rang before him was, but picked it uo anywhy.'
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
"OMG VOLDEMORT WE SHOULD TOTALLY GO KILL SOME PEOPLE TODAY," an eager Harry said
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"Upon hearing the word "Shall we go for a little KILLING?" he instantly perked.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"I'm liking that kind of thinking, young Harry," Voldemort said gravely
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
being VOLDEMORT, naturally, he would perk.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"Voldemort leapt out of bed humming a happy little song, "Let's Go Kill Today," to the tune of "Let's Go Fly a Kite"
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
''Perhaps we should join forces and become....(dum dum dum daaa) the U.N.D.E.R.P.A.N.T.S.'' Harry, being HARRY POTTER, did not wait to hear what the acronym stood for, but promptly hung up, deciding to do any killing ON HIS OWN.
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
since Voldemort was now a certified pansy.
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
poor chap.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"Voldemort pouted exceedingly, and was rather tempted to kill Harry, but instead settled for blowing up the strange.. telephone. thing"
taste the lie in my mouth says:
Ah well, he was bearing up well under the ordeal.
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
yes yes, such trumatic things can gaggle up on a person.
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
'So once again we are with young Harry. Who wants to kill.'
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
'A lot.'
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"Harry, meanwhile, was standing by a sleeping Dudley, wondering how to turn him back into a pig before roasting him. He rather felt like bacon for breakfast"
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"You can tell by the twitching in that young, handsome eyebrow."
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
He does it. As well, Uncle Vernon is turned into a yummy beat, and Aunt Petunia eats the beat.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"As well as the way he's chanting "Kill, kill, kill, kill" under his breath, possibly"
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
*beet
taste the lie in my mouth says:
"It's due to her horselike disposition. She just can't resist root vegetables and the like.2
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
She then dies too.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
Because of course Vernon was poisoned.
taste the lie in my mouth says:
Cunning, eh?
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
Exactly.
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
Yes
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
we should publish!
taste the lie in my mouth says:
hehehe
taste the lie in my mouth says:
i bet we'd sell, too, to be honest *g* skits are all good
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
yes
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
and this one
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
going fantastic
taste the lie in my mouth says:
ooo yes indeed
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
now he should go after Nellatrix because she kills me
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
so he could kill her
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
Nellatrix being Bellatrix of course
taste the lie in my mouth says:
Hahahaha
taste the lie in my mouth says:
I prefer Nellatwix, really
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
oh indeed
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
Names should so reflect a person
taste the lie in my mouth says:
*g*
taste the lie in my mouth says:
again.. *g*
taste the lie in my mouth says:
yes miss firefloewr
taste the lie in my mouth says:
*floewr
taste the lie in my mouth says:
(flower damnit
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
XD
taste the lie in my mouth says:
got there eventually.. *g* anyway... we need to speak to a publisher
taste the lie in my mouth says:
maybe I should put it in the school mag. haha
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
lol, sure the teachers would love that!
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
'COME SEE IT! DEATH! GORE! HARRY POTTER!'
taste the lie in my mouth says:
wouldnt they just *g* im the editor,
taste the lie in my mouth says:
and we're allowed to have it slightly contraversial
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
WOOT
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
DO IT!!!!!!!!
taste the lie in my mouth says:
heh heh
taste the lie in my mouth says:
!!!
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
FORGET IK POETRY COMPS!
taste the lie in my mouth says:
(50% of copyright belonging to elf girl in america)
taste the lie in my mouth says:
i'll have that at the bottom
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
XD yea
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
or just say Heather 'Hommie G from America' D.
taste the lie in my mouth says:

taste the lie in my mouth says:
hahaha indeed
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
(g is for gangster)
taste the lie in my mouth says:
haha! must haev that too
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
dude, we are teh smart cookies together
taste the lie in my mouth says:
*g*
if you'll be my star, i'll be your sky (i live to let you shine) says:
(well seperate aswell, but you catch my drift)
taste the lie in my mouth says:
ohh definitely. the blood just multiplies when we're together
taste the lie in my mouth says:
uhhh well gotta go! xxxx

owwww

2005-08-19T15:47:15Z

SO sore from yesterday.
but I managed a kong vault.
this is most excellent.

oh my oh my

2005-08-18T23:00:14Z

Tagged and i didn't even know! Thanks kalmor!

1.Spill Canvas - Staplegunned
2.P!ATD- The only difference between matrydem and suicide is Press Coverage
3.Foo Fighters- Best of You
4.Saosin- Dunno the name of the song
5.MSC- Goodnight

So, I taggeth lairendi, silme_, and Pen because tags are a pain in the behind. And Eou cause she's back. Oh, whoever.

ahhhh

2005-08-18T18:09:52Z

nothing like PK during a tornado warning.

seriously, I had no idea til I came inside and Mum calls and tells me about it.

Whoops.

omg another one

2005-08-17T23:41:08Z

credit me if you wanna take it. and the one i'm using too. which is:

naurieoftheloth @ 2005-08-17T19:15:00

2005-08-17T23:16:21Z

i made an icon! SBP icon! yaya! i think i'll make more.

going home soon

2005-08-17T03:37:13Z

that is love.

it's kinda sad, but i'll have friends again. or at least halfway. but i'll miss family. but, like, friends.

still a bit sad.

i'm an emotional disaster.

wow. above statement is so not me.